A moment of Trust

Several years back I was playing in a big golf tournament in Baltimore

It had been many years since I competed and was feeling the pressure of "the moment"

you know, that time when your body and mind start wondering why you put yourself in this position to begin with

general nervousness
self-doubt creeping ever closer
talking differently, or not at all
pace and speed of things are changing
breathing differently

I came to the final hole in the hunt, with a birdie I might could even get into a playoff

It had taken me a couple years to get to this point in my game

My swing had been rebuilt and I had practiced hours and hours

I sacrificed in other areas of life

And here I was...not even feeling like myself

This was a moment locked in time for me...ten years ago and it is still as clear in my mind as it was standing on that tee box

I remember the inner discussions in my brain

back and forth

Headache potential

Despite all the opportunity for fear and doubt to overtake me, I told myself out loud-yes, out loud-"what have I got to lose? You've worked hard, you've played well, just trust yourself Pete and your golf swing in this moment"

I will not live in fear and doubt this time and see what happens

I took a deep breath, went through my routine and trusted totally

Two good swings later I was on the putting surface

Two putts later I had a third place finish

We all have these moments, right?

Moments where we can choose to trust

Moments where we can live in fear and doubt

This was a good moment, a sweet memory, I latch on to as I move forward in correct self-trust

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